If I ever went missing, I could probably be found by following the trail of abandoned planners, journals, blogs, and social media accounts I've left in my wake. It feels like an inevitable cycle - get hyped, start the thing, worry it's not good enough, leave it behind. It took me almost two years to find the courage to start this site, and merely two months to put it on the back burner.
Maybe that's on 2020. Maybe it's imposter syndrome.
PP1 has stayed in my mind over the past 18+ months. I still have a running list on my phone of all the posts and ideas I want to share. I'm still helping families and friends travel to Disney and Universal destinations. I'm still engaging with the community online. I've still traveled and explored.
I just lost my way a little bit. Isn't that what happens in fairy tales?
A global pandemic. Ups and downs and sideways changes in the theme parks. Navigating a nearly crushing workload in my "less magical" job, including a company change. A move. A broken heart - figuratively *and* literally. It's been a ride - and not the Splash Mountain kind.
But just like Matty preached on Peloton this morning - magic is just what happens when you believe in yourself.
Over the past four months, I think I've learned how to do that. Thanks to a lot of therapy, some hypnosis, hard work in the gym and in the kitchen... I'm feeling like myself again. Maybe better than myself! And imposter syndrome has given way to, "hey, this is a creative outlet and a way for me to share my passions and that's all it really needs to be"... syndrome.
Which feels a lot more manageable, doesn't it? :)
I'm really looking forward to 2022. It already seems comfortable. Not presumptuous or assuming. Like grabbing coffee with an old friend. Settled and cozy.
That's the vibe I'm carrying with me right now. I did the work leading up to the New Year, and now I just want to lean in for the conversation.
Ready to chat? Let's make some magic.
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